The Most Difficult Boot Camp EVER
Would you believe that I am crying because of the internet? Internet is so slow that it's almost non-existent. I can't work. I mean, I CAN'T FIND WORK! Wala pa 'kong work and it's almost a month! I really worry. Also, I feel so sabog/hyper/tired because I havent slept well last night. Yet, I felt God just wanted me to stop, pray, talk to Him. So I'm crying because there's REALLY NO INTERNET. I ask for dependence in Him, and here when He's giving me now what I ask for, para akong adik na may withdrawal symptoms. I have just realized how much of a control freak I am. I want anything but God, yet He wants me dearly despite of that fact that I push Him aside. Then, a prayer emerged (despite of my sinfulness): "Distract me with Yourself Lord, from everything and anything else that does not really matter. After all, You're our gracious Father. Never Ka nagkulang." The training camp of trusting God, resting in Him, being still in Him in man...